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It's been so windy here in my neck of the woods! Paulina and I were going to go bike riding yesterday, but we decided to go walking instead. I think we walked about four miles, and it was nice because we were able to catch up and talk. As we were walking back from the canyon, Jimmy's truck passed us by. It was my first time seeing him since we broke up last week. I waved, mostly out of reaction,

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Last night I overate again! I just kept on eating bowls of malt-o-meal until I couldn't eat anymore. My belly was literally FULL.But, today is a NEW day! I did okay this morning. I ate a bowl of oatmeal and piece of buttered toast. For a snack, I had a handful of edamame nuts. Lunch will be spaghetti, a piece of bread, and some sort of veggie. I am a school teacher, so I eat the school lunch.I

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This is my first time logging on in a long time! I have not been keeping up with writing down everything I've eaten, and that's been a lot. Dang! Well, my boyfriend and I broke up and I've been eating constantly since then. I can't seem to stop. When I miss Jimmy, I eat. When I get mad about him cheating on me, I eat. When I'm sad, I eat. When I'm bored, I eat.On the upside, I've found a new "

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But the hard way--I had the flu this whole past week. Last Tuesday afternoon I was attacked with severe aches and pains. I hate being sick. I had no appetite and hardly ate anything throughout my sickness. I'll start recording today what I am eating/doing for phsyical exercise.Today, I have not eaten anything. I am still a little sick, so no appetite. Will eat soup for lunch. No exercise.

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I feel so sluggish and gross. And upset with myself. I have spent so much time working on my spiritual self, my mental/emotional self, yet neglecting my physical self. I feel very overwhelmed with even trying to start losing weight. I can't afford anything life Weight Watcher's, so I am going to commit to blogging about my weight loss/get fit endeavors. I am hoping to find more folks on here who

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Come again another day. I remember singing this when I was a child. Quite often. I would wish it wasn't raining so I could be outside, barefoot, in the sunshine playing with my tree and animal friends. I find myself wishing it now. Odd, because I live in a state of the US where rain is precious and wonderful and valuable. But here, in Tingo Maria, I want it to stop raining. I don't want it be

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My fourth and last ayahuasca session was waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay more different than I thought it´d be. Oh, silly Jenn. When will you realize not to limit Aya? I had journaled and prayed to Aya to show me more transcendant Love. Flying and soaring again. I wanted more of that. I also did give specific requests of her: -my relationship with Jimmy -what should I do when I get back home? Teach or yurt

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We sat in darkness, waiting to be called to the center, to be given the elixer of unshrouded mysteries. I was holding Love in my heart. Allowing its strength and solidity to wash over me. Sitting closest to Alberto, I was last to be called. When it was my time, I went shakily and knelt in front of Herbert, who was administering tonight. I held the little cup in my hands, closed my eyes, lifted it

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The whole next morning I walked with this lingering feeling of sadness and futility. Sitting on the ground of my casita, I wallowed in misery. Alberto came to bring me my lunch, but I wasn´t hungry. I had no appetite for anything that would sustain me. He asked how I was doing and I told him about the demons. I told him I was still scared of losing myself in my own misery and never being able to

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Was the thought I had thirty minutes into my second Ayahuasca session on Thursday night. Don´t get me wrong-after my first light filled session last Wednesday, I was going into this thinking it would not be strong enough to take me deep enough to find that bastard of a monster and slay him. Oh, the cockiness of ignorance. As soon as I drank the salty elixer of mama aya, I began to look for the

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We left Tarapoto around nine am on Tuesday morning and headed toward Champato, which is further in the jungle. I found this small village to be quaint and what I pictured a small yet modern jungle village to be. My drive there was amazing as I had never seen jungle before. I couldn´t take my eyes off how green everything was! I was in love! I also knew, deep in my heart, that this was a perfect

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Last Monday night (gosh, it seems much longer than that) I met Alberto for the first time. He is the second shaman I was going to be working with besides Herbert. I had heard much about him from Rebecca, so I was ready to meet his smiling face. He has a sweet, quiet spirit, one that I came to count on and trust over the course of la dieta. He and Herbert sat us down (there were four of us at the

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Hello my sweet friends! I´ve made it out alive and whole, which is more than I can say for how I entered. We have just returned from our week long dieta in the jungle near Tarapoto and man, have I got a lot to write! Thing is, I don´t have the time right now, but will later this afternoon. Blew my mind. Opened my second and fourth chakras. Expelled so much crap. Reunited with my little gal self.

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I drank ayahuasca for the first time this past Wednesday night. I must admit I was nervous and scared, especially after the crazy mushroom experience. I only at a mango and a few sunflower seeds that morning and then nothing for the rest of the day. I wanted to have a clean system for the Vine. Before leaving the hostel, I started to feel sick to my stomach and started burping and thinking I had

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Flying to Peru, I must admit I had no expectations. Everytime I would close my eyes and try to imagine what would happen once I got here, I drew a blank. I think I knew I wasn't supposed to have ideas of what would come my way. Like walking blindfolded down an alley. Trust. Goddess did not disappoint. I arrived in Lima at 12:50 AM and was greeted by a driver, Frances, from Loki Hostel. He was

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Things are daily falling into place for my trip to Peru. I am meeting people who know people . . . I may have met my Shaman. Ayahuasca is calling me. Plans are being thrown out the window. Spirit is getting me ready.I met a woman online named Rebecca who mirrors me in many ways. She is three years younger than me, but seems wiser and older. I have learned much from her already and her courage and

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Lead me on I will follow Open my eyes I will see Take me deep I will swim Fly me high I will soar Sweet Goddess Sweet Mother Dark Mother Mother of Light lead me on My soul is being prepared, opened up for what I'm going to experience. On some level, some plane, I already know. It's already happened. On this level, my higher Self is preparing me. It's as if a million sensory radars are buzzing,

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After spending almost a whole week side by side my mother cooking for Thanksgiving, I was finally able to spend some time away from my family. I really needed it because on T-Day, my mom and I got into an argument and I stormed out towards the creek. I just needed to get away for a while and find myself-balance.Friday night, my sister took me to pick Gillian up from work and then dropped us off

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So we ended up finding a place to stay on Saturday night. We lucked out and scored a great room at Riverbend Hot Springs in T or C. I had never been there before (T or C) and I must say, it is quite the quaint little desert town. Surprisingly, it is very artistic and cute. There's even a health food store called Little Sprouts. We had breakfast at a little hole in the wall diner called Cuchillo

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Today is Departure Day #1. I'm leaving behind everything safe to me and heading to tumultous waters. I am going home for twelve days and as much as I love my family, if I'm not careful, I could drown while I'm there. I am excited to see them, especially my mom, sister, brother, and nephew.I've enjoyed a lazy morning of finishing packing, reminiscing, being a little sad, a lot excited, being in

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Friday night was our first Santa Fe Wicca Circle and it was lovely. We're a small group of six. Santa Fe has surprisingly little Pagan culture, so you can imagine how excited I was to see Raven's posting for a circle. We met at Raven's house, got to know each other and then sat to do ritual. We used the New Moon as a time to release that which we didn't want to carry with us into our new year. We

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I bought a book today about Chakras. I don't know much about them, but have been reading more about them here and there in the past two weeks. I have been feeling off, so I'm curious to see what I learn.Evie is taking her toll on me. I just don't know that I'm mommy material. I normally don't think about this all of the time, but watching Evie these past three weeks has made me think about it on

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sunshine, oh sunshinelittle rays of lightseepingincaressing my spirit~my soulhelping meletgo.

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My passport came in yesterday!!! I can't believe how fast it arrived--I just applied for it on October 29th. I paid the expediting fee for 3 weeks, and it's worth it. I also got a reply email from a guy who's interested in starting an ecovillage in Pecos, which has been my dream. Good things . . . So, J. called yesterday and left two messages. I'm glad he called because at least I know he doesn't

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Being AliveHealthyFamilySpiritualityBellaFriendsNew MexicoNice, cozy place to liveget to travel (Peru)The Sun shining every dayBeautiful sunsetsAmazing sunrisestortilla soupa good laugha good cryrelease through writingrelease through dreamingrocky road ice creamAugust, my sweet friendgetting to connect with other souls through writingbutterfliesdragonfliesGolden Aspen Groves, my goddess, they're

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I needed some sort of closure, to put this relationship to rest. To bed. I emailed J. that I had assumed we'd stay friends since I thought we were so connected. His actions/vibes have proved otherwise, so I can't afford to waste energy on something that is not reciprocated. However, this does make me want to feel rejected, or like something is wrong with me. The difference from me last year to

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I'm not really sure how I feel this morning. Sad. Hurt. Jaded. Disillusioned. Angry. Yet resigned. I went to E's house last night for dinner. Her boyfriend was coming over and she really wanted me to meet him. So I'm there, we had dinner, smoked, and they drank a lot. I had one rum and coke, then declined the subsequent offers. The guys were smoking cigarettes on the patio and I was laying on her

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I went to Canela's yesterday morning to enjoy a nice, leisurely breakfast and to use their wireless internet. This cutie came onto the patio and we started talking about natural building, more specifically--yurts. Another guy overheard us talking and came to our section. He said he was interested in yurts, so I told him there was a yurt company in Pecos. I decided to have him follow me there

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I've been germinating in this cocoon called life. Little did I know that I was not done developing; I still have Wings to spread. These wings will enable me to fly, soar high above attachment, self-doubt, insecurity . . . and towards the Light.Oh, how I thought my world was crashingand that the light was running outthat I had gone so far below that not even a ray of sunshinecould reach mebut I

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